you have stolen my <3

Sunday, December 16, 2007 ♥

ranted@6:03 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

camp's over for me. i rly didnt want to leave the place. haha. i love pastor clare's wise words and teachings. rly blessed there. murder game was truckloads of fun. heh. now packing bag to aust. so i'm off. (: have fun in singapore my dear friends. i love you all. have a MERRY CHRISTMAS. i'll be missing all of you there in aust. dont miss me too much yeah? HEH. buhbyeeeee. <3

♥ Love, ME

Friday, December 14, 2007 ♥

ranted@1:12 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

i know i'm suppose to be studying. and FYI, i wont be sleeping tonight. hahaha. but, i just have to say this...

its only 7 more hours till we are going to.....

KICK CIP ASS!!!

I GONNA BURN YOU CIP. HA! YOU JUST WAITTTTT.

there i said it.
now back to the damn books.

♥ Love, ME

Thursday, December 13, 2007 ♥

ranted@9:42 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

okay, its the bloody CIP again. UGH. seriously, i'm gna burn it when the semster is over. BURNNNN.
anyways, i'll be away from th net from tmr onwards.
cos its camp and then australiaaaaaa.
wheee. hahaha. and i'm gna make full use of DWAYNE boy. (:
i'll miss all you ppl. esp...since i wont be able to celebrate christmas here back at home.
alrighty. back to the dumb CIP.
buhbye everyone.

till 31st.

♥ Love, ME

Wednesday, December 12, 2007 ♥

ranted@12:21 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

exams make me sick. literally. UGH

♥ Love, ME

Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ♥

ranted@12:37 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

a peek into the party...
i GOT TO BE A FAIRY. hawhaw
anyways, upload more another time! (:

ps. 2 papers down, 2 more to go! then youth camp and aust!

♥ Love, ME

Friday, December 07, 2007 ♥

ranted@5:39 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

sometimes you wonder if your existence did matter on this world, and if anyone knew what was going on in that mind of yours. or if anyone cared enough to just drop a "how are you feeling?" note. and then as you walked down the lonely road ahead, with your teardrops mixing with the raindrops that poured from the above, you realised hard and harsh that there's no way anyone would know what was going on in that heart and mind, because, you, yourself are confused with what's happening. you cant comprehend why you're feeling like this or doing this. and as you scroll down the list of friends in your mind, you realise that there's no one who can share this curse with you.

Leona Lewis Keep Bleeding Lyrics

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding in love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding in love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding in love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding in love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding in love

♥ Love, ME

Thursday, December 06, 2007 ♥

ranted@2:22 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

anyways, on a random note, kailun's term of mini kids is rly funny. hahaha. yessss, mini kids are so scary. LOL. wth. but whatever. hahaha. anddddddddddddd... i cant wait for sat!!!! PRINCESSES AND PRINCES. its time to strut our stuff ppl (:

♥ Love, ME

♥

ranted@12:28 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

i got to play HALO 3 yesterday. heh.
and i got to play with DWAYNE MY MAN.

on a random note, today is a very suay day. ):
i miss a chance.... UGH. saddening.
and it was raining like hell, and i got like stuck in the rain. but at least i had my hair cut!
and tmr i'm gna shop!!! for my green princess dress. heh.

♥ Love, ME

Tuesday, December 04, 2007 ♥

ranted@9:59 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

ello people.

as i studied, my mind wandered along, and i realise how complicated is this world we live in. we are tied down by these things called emotions. one moment we can be singing and dancing to our favourite song, and at the next moment, we can be thinking of how suckish our lives are. call it mood swings or whatever technical terms you call it. but i beg to differ. i think why such 'mood swings' occur is because, we are going thru a phase in life. as we begin to comprehend how this world functions and how friends can be called enemies over night, we realised that it is the harsh reality of life. yet, it is these things called emotions that drives us to live our days. and may i add the word, sadly.

okay, enuff said, i think its time to get back to the books.
seriously, poly holidays' timings are seriously so screwed.

♥ Love, ME

♥

ranted@7:16 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

yesterday, was in a way, one of the most fantastic day of 2007.
why? i finally caught enchanted. hawhaw. thanks to my sis's uni exams luh.
i saved it specially for her! (:

and........ not forgetting,

I GOT MY DWAYNE!

yes, my SLR camera. haha. its my baby, and i named it DWAYNE. lol.
beeling, DWAYNE IS SUPERBLY POWERPACK! cant wait for dwayne to meet scarlette! (:

THANKS DADDY AND MOMMY! <3

♥ Love, ME

Saturday, December 01, 2007 ♥

ranted@11:41 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

phua - i want to break free says:
lol im bored..
phua - i want to break free says:
i wanna game..
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
lol
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
oh thanks, i'm so boring huh
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
haha
phua - i want to break free says:
NO
phua - i want to break free says:
never
phua - i want to break free says:
haha
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
hahahaha
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
kidding luh
phua - i want to break free says:
jeanlee is never boring
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
AWW
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
i'm gna blog that
phua - i want to break free says:
u can quote me on that (:
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
hahahahaha
jeanlee I need you like a heart needs a beat DWAYNE my man says:
AWWW

LOL.

♥ Love, ME

♥

ranted@8:14 PM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

i think i shall label today the ultimate suay day.
why? cos shaan and i headed to ken's shop to cut our hair....
and guess, what it was having its opening cermony. (yes, the lion dance and all)
so, we wasted the whole morning in anticipation of our hair cut. hahahaha
sorry shaan, you had to travel all the way down in the early morn!! -.-

anyways, on a happier note, my dad just agreed to buy me my slr camera tomorrow, before the australia trip. so bimbos and the whole 7 families, watch out, jean is gna go on a photography spree with her awesome camera. (:

days like before, time that never stops. if only we had the power to control situations in life to our liking. but then again, what would life be without its ups and downs, hurts and joy. maybe if we all tried our best to be a better person, then life wouldnt be so unfair. maybe if we werent too caught up with our own problems to see the bigger problems others face. maybe if we werent be too self-centred and tried listening awhile longer. maybe if we stop, and see the world for itself and stop living in our fantasy world. maybe, maybe.

actions speaks more than words, that's all i have to say to you.

♥ Love, ME

♥

ranted@12:36 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

i ran a freaking GOOD 50 mins non-stop.
sorry kailun, hahaha. apparently, your conviction almost, ALMOST got me, but when you said "ok go run :p". i went. hahahaha. and, no it wasnt a tad dangerous. -.- haha.

LIZHEN, BEELING, BFF!
ARENT YOU PROUD OF ME! hahahahahahahaha.

anyways, on a random note, running clears your mind and thoughts, ALOT. seriously, go run to vent?

alrighty mates, nights.

♥ Love, ME

♥

ranted@12:36 AM

Dear diary,
JEAN says

went out with JINGYUAN the bimbo. omg, her comments are supper funny. makes me laugh a hell lot. lol