Monday, June 26, 2006 ♥
ranted@10:58 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
lol.
its only the 2nd day of school and i'm not going cos i'm sick.
sighs...
nvms.
anyways,
today's the first day of school.
nothing much.
in fact to me...
it feels as though its still holidays jus that i have to go back to school during the holidays.
haha.
anyways lotsa stuff happened in june. LOL
church camp: 1) shawn's bloody leg indcident. haha. we thought i room was haunted!
2) there was a bat in our room. my baby bat!!!
3) nicholas, jess, ian, olive, shaun, feng rong are so so so CUTE.
i'm totally in love with these kids.
radical conference: i wanna be radical for GOD.
lotsa retail therapy.
and lotsa other stuff.*GRINS.
♥ Love, ME
♥
ranted@10:58 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
lol.
its only the 2nd day of school and i'm not going cos i'm sick.
sighs...
nvms.
anyways,
today's the first day of school.
nothing much.
in fact to me...
it feels as though its still holidays jus that i have to go back to school during the holidays.
haha.
anyways lotsa stuff happened in june. LOL
church camp: 1) shawn's bloody leg indcident. haha. we thought i room was haunted!
2) there was a bat in our room. my baby bat!!!
3) nicholas, jess, ian, olive, shaun, feng rong are so so so CUTE.
i'm totally in love with these kids.
radical conference: i wanna be radical for GOD.
lotsa retail therapy.
and lotsa other stuff.*GRINS.
♥ Love, ME
Monday, June 12, 2006 ♥
ranted@12:38 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
yesterday was pure craziness.
the alarms in my church kept ranging
barbara and i kept screaming.
alarms + 2 rather not so alarm wise girls = screams, frantic runs and of course shouting.
hahas.
get the picture?
wont further elaborate but it was CRAZY.
did worship practice in church till 8pm plus.
went taka to shop.
bought a seafolly swimsuit.
today went church
did worship.
the preaching was super GOOD.
went out to shop..
bought a pair of jeans.
JAZZ is SO CUTE
i want a baby hamster too!
tml's church camp!
FINALLY away from singapore...
a getaway
i'm jus gonna listen to sermons.
play tennis since shawn is so so so excited to do so.
keep calling me to rmb to bring the tennis racket.
HAHA.
and SUNTAN.
GRINS cant wait.
untouchable
unreachable
unavailable
for the time being (till 16th)
cos....
I'M IN CHURCH CAMP!!
♥ Love, ME
Saturday, June 10, 2006 ♥
ranted@12:27 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
yesterday marks yet another end of a wonderful chapter.
the memories.
the happy times.
the SCOLDING (muhaha.evil laughter)
the FUN
the JOY
the EXCITMENT
the PURE motivation
i miss them all.
i LOVE all of you.
i
promise i'll come back
to the leaders...
stay STRONG.
i have faith in you guys to pull choir to greater heights!
i LOVE EACH and EVERY ONE of U.
keep going...
to the members.
LISTEN to the LEADERS.
if not i personally come after you guys HOR.
HAHA.
BOWEN CHORALE.
WORK HARD.
LOVE YA.
jeanlee<3
♥ Love, ME
Thursday, June 08, 2006 ♥
ranted@12:06 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
time passes so fast.
why do good times pass so fast
and sad ones so slow....
anyways..
i'm OVER~
went retail therapy today.
gonna do so this weekend again.
LOL.
then..
i'll be away in church camp.
yesh!
finally a getaway frm Singapore...
i have to learn to forgive..
i dunno why but going online makes me depress.
i shld spend more tym studying or doing something productive.
so..
i shall stay away from com.
restrict to once a week.
dear God.
please help me to forgive and let go......
ps. soon.. all will be only shattered memories never to relive again.
pps. these songs bring back reminiscince.
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
addictedbykellyclarksonHe drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
His magical myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
beautifuldisasterbykellyclarkson
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
not sure that i'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Was the reason why he left you, in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you
ihatemyselfforlosingyoubykellyclarkson
You've got your mother and your brother, every other
Under cover telling you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is, that it's Cupid
Baby, loving you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hand off of my trigger,oh yah
You need to know this situations getting old
And now the more you talk, the less I can say
I'm looking for a attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away
Just walk away, Just walk away
I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I'm all alone
So before you start defending, baby
Stop all your pretending
I know ,you know ,I know
So what's the point in being slow,
"Let's get this show on the road today"
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away
Just walk away, Just Walk Away
I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you going to fight for me
Die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away If you dont have the answer
Walk Away
Just Walk Away
Then Just Leave
oh yeah
walk away(x2)
walkawaybykellyclarkson
ppps. Romans 12:9,11,14,17,19-20
Galatians 6:9-10
Romans 14:4
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
2 Corinthians 1:3-6,9
Ephesians 4:2, 29-32
James 1:2-3
James 3:17
most imptly, 1 John 4:20-21
♥ Love, ME
Friday, June 02, 2006 ♥
ranted@11:53 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
life is like...
a race?
a journey?
what is life to u?
to me?
to them?
again..
one mus have eternal perspective in life.
Time is runnin out.
GOD is coming back.
this time to conquer the devil..
harvesters.
fellow brothers and sisters.
let's get ready...
prepare our hearts for the coming of our Lord
♥ Love, ME
