Dear diary,
JEAN says

finally, we got to eattttt at teaparty.
the spag and pizza is purrrrrrfect.
and my peach smoothie, best-est of the best. LOL
omg, we had hella fun luh.
played, old maid (until we realised the old maid card was missing. ._."), happy family, uno, uno stack-o and FACT OR CRAP.
hahaha. awesome.
bloody hell, cheryl totally scared me luh.
she and i went upstairs to the toilet and when i was opening the door, she shouted BOO right in front of me.
i totally was stunned.









Dear diary,
JEAN says

some random school pics. (:


ha. wonders of hanizah's handphone. awesome.

whaaa. cheryl so cool yo!





met up with jingyuan, after like a month.
we went to eat the $1 kachang, near old bowen. lol.
and stone at some playground nearby.
had a great time talking to her, and i didnt want to go home luh.
hahahaha. then we walked all the wayyyyyyyyy to kovan mall? is that what you call it?
to wash our bloody hands and use the toilet. hahahaha.







Dear diary,
JEAN says

okay, i'm yet again in class, and i'm blogging. sheesh, someone please knock some sense into my puneey brain and tell me that its time to start paying attention in lectures and tutorials. whateverrr, i bet russell will do it since he always knows i'm not paying attention and trying to knock some bloody sense into me. haha.

anyways, i just loveeeeee entering into my fantasy world of just hard cold reality. i realised, i need to go conselling or some hypnotic programme, to like erase that part of my life. or maybe be slapped by my friends. i think they're getting tired of listening to my whinny self and random thoughts. i feel so screwed up. and like, i cant stop my self for feeling like this. i guess, i gotta learn it, hard and harsh to stop doing what i'm doing or feeling.

okay, i'm off to inventing songs by coping lyrics. ha! will post later.

woots, dinner with jingyuan later!



Dear diary,
JEAN says

went to eat cold rock with beeling and valencia.
i finally managed to get to sit on the swinggggg.
YAY. haha.
we talked about stuff and this very horny girl.

okay, no more.



Dear diary,
JEAN says

while mr sexy sonny is lecturing, i'm blogging. /tsk.
oh oh BEELING is sitting beside me with her pinkkkkkkkk top. woots. haha

anyways, PHUA KAILUN. i disagreeeeeeee.
COLD ROCK IS WAY NICER THAN B&J.
you can dreammmmmmm dreammmmmmmm about changing my mind.
and no, sorry. i dont want to go for your B&J treat. hahaha.

barbara was a mean bimbo ytd. she like totally insulted our nerdy bimbo luh. tsk tsk.

i'm bored, off to play neopets.



Dear diary,
JEAN says

i wanna thank BFF for acc-ing me the whole day. for going to novena with me then to paragon. LOL. for talking thru things with me on the way there and the way back. For saying that "he'll be there for me. and if anything, i can call him or sms him." For being so patient with me. For laughing at me, in turn making me laugh at myself- the silly me. thankyou thankyou. When you need that person to be there for you, please rmb me too! (: YOU'RE AWESOME. YOU KNOW THAT? (: /hugs.

i don't want to think about this anymore.
no more please.



Dear diary,
JEAN says

she walked down that lonely road, tired and defeated.
a shimmer caught her eye, she turned and started walking towards it.
it was time, perhaps, to face herself.
her hand reached across, and slowly, she wiped that dusty surface.
almost immediately, she drew back her hand.
staring right back at her, was her very reflection.
she took a deep breath and took a step towards the mirror.
and then...
she was falling.
images flashed past her eyes.
her as a toddler, running towards her parents with a glee plastered on her face.
her first ever birthday party.
her first fall
her first friend
her first crush.
and then she was
14
15
16
17
suddenly, she landed hard on a cold concrete ground.
she tried to get up, but something was just pulling her towards the ground.
lights flickered, and a door creaked open.
"hello, is anyone there?" she cried out.
a person slowly appeared.
that girl was sobbing, not daring to look at her.
and it dawned on her-that, that girl was herself.
she looked so sad, so tired, so alone.
"i'm so sorry" that girl blurted out.
"i'm so sorry, that i wasnt good enough for you. i'm sorry for being weak. i'm sorry for falling so hard. i'm sorry for all the pretence and false joy. i'm sorry for hurting you. i'm sorry for hoping too much. i'm sorry for believing. i'm sorry for everything"
the door slowly began to shut, while the girl kept whisphering sorry to her.
"but wait! i don't understand! I..."
/slam.
"I don't understand. I don't understand myself anymore" she laid there and began to cry.
and for the third time, she closed her eyes, paralysed, with nothing but sobs- that echoed the dark room.



Dear diary,
JEAN says

i think bimbo-ness runs in the family.
well, i shall attempt to explain.
well, barbara (the president of bimbo club) told me that her elder sister went to london with her friends
and they like sat in a cab
and the cab driver told her that this is the cab where mcfly sat.
and guess what her sister did?
she asked her friend "er, who's mcfly?"
/faints. hahaha.
BIMBO-NESS does run in the family. LOL.
right my bimbo pres?



Dear diary,
JEAN says

i wna see my prediction come trueeeeeeee.
yes yes yes?
hehehehehe. only a special few know what i'm talking about.
plus, i think he's cute!
and such a gentleman.
must must must! (;

That's When I Love You by Aslyn
When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u can't quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u
I love u More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what



Dear diary,
JEAN says

today was hella funnnnnnn.
ahaha.
CATS was okayyyy.
S&W was fun tho it was bloody hot.
hahaha. jac must be so pissed off cos it turned out to be outdoor vball instead of indoor. LOL.
after that i went for french with lizhen, thanks girl for talking to meeeee (:
french would totally suck w/o you dear.

beeling and cheryl and jac waited for my french to end!
so sweet of them!
and then we went to KAP. we were suppose to go to teaparty but it was late:/ hahaha.
there was like a grp of noisy guys beside us. UGH.
they were like so lame. aha. and we totally laughed at them.
we like totally chatted about our childhood moments hahaha.
man, we must so have more of these sessions ! right beeling? (:

does it have to be like this all the time?
whatever.



Dear diary,
JEAN says


my seducing partner.

we wore dresses to sch tdy!


i keep telling my mind, its impossible.
but my heart sings to a different song.
i keep trying to shut it out,
but it doesnt make a difference at all.
I try to do things, to make me happy
and think, i'm finally moving on,
but then night falls,
and everything becomes bare.
I must face up to this,
even if it means that i will go alone,
i will do it.

thanks beeling, omgosh, what will i do without you to listen to my rantings (: i will just die luh. haha.

BFF. we must so catch up :( i miss your advices on msn.

sarah dear, i love you to bits too

went out with kailun. ate nydc and cold rock. omgosh, the ice cream was heavenly but... i didnt get to sit on the swing. talked alot with him. hahaha. its 'chim'. hahaha. anyways, thanks for the treat! (: omgosh. i think today's my most bimbo day, cos i got off like a stop later and had to walk back and i forgot to give him my present. :/ sorry.



Dear diary,
JEAN says

i told myself not to do that, and now i am. ugh.
jeanjeanjean. cant you for once give yourself a little credit and smthing to be proud of?
-sigh.
perhaps, i'm just living a lie.

i need my banana-fanana and my chocs and sugar sweets.
i need my one tree hill.
i need my shopping.
i need a lil cam whoring.
that's what i need right now.



Dear diary,
JEAN says





Dear diary,
JEAN says

i love my class, poly life would suck a hell lot without you babes (:
and Mr Tan is so grandpa-ish. i absolutely love!



okay, i'm lazy to upload more. we took like at least 200 photos alr luh.

i'm so happy happy happy. and i wont tell you why! (;

i'm here for you dear, stay strong, we'll be friends no matter what



Dear diary,
JEAN says

i absolutely love schhhhhhh.

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