Thursday, May 31, 2007 ♥
ranted@1:06 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
you will heal her, wont you?
you will extend her life, wont you?
what's Your will?
please.
heal her.
i'm not ready to let her go yet.
if i had one last week on earth...
Day 1:
i would definitedly skip all my tutorials and lectures.
scream at the world for forcing us to learn senseless stuff that proved to be no avail when you face your death.
spend my time with my parents and family members whom i love so much.
and my friends who stayed by my side, cheering and supporting me.
Day 2:
go sky-diving again.
laugh at the craziness and immorality of the world.
sign up for donation of my organs after my death.
forgive those who have hurt me.
tell my friends how precious Jesus is.
Day 3:
go water rafting.
Sing my lungs out.
watch remember the titans, coach carter, the greatest game of their lives, etc.
Day 4:
Tell every single family member and close friends how significant they played a role in my life.
Have a bowl of pringles and watch stairway to heaven
run and tell him J'amie tu! and then run away laughing my guts out!
Day 5:
run around at the beach with my friends playing...um... catching!?
aha. i am soooo suffering from second childhood.
sing sing sing again.
totally go canoeing.
turn back time to 4years ago. (why? so not gonna tell you.)
laugh at that evil best friend.
okay... not so bad. at least tell her i wont really miss her.
Day 6:
Go swimming!
Go tanning!
Start laughing.
Start going mad.
Go shopping!
do anything silly on earth.
After all that. SLEEP
Day 7:
SLEEP
SLEEP
SLEEP
Talk to my family and friends.
say goodbye.
and close my eyes.
Okay.
i have to blog cos... today is such a weird day.
i think i have finally met him!
omgosh.
like how's surprising can life get.
i was totally stressing out for my french test.
and when i looked up..
guess who i saw.
go figure.
its for me to know, and you to find out.
but... it really brought a nostalgic feeling.
haha.
and den when i was on a train.
i think i met yet another person..
ugh.
how weird is today.
okay...
back to my thoughts.
i think its happening all over again.
Je suis Jean. Je suis etudiante de a Ngee Ann Polytechic.
Je habite Singapour. Je parle Anglais. J'ai 17 ans. Il est Belle.
HAHA.
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
♥ Love, ME
Friday, May 18, 2007 ♥
ranted@10:27 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
Signal Fire by Snow PatrolThe perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you,
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me,
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out,
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety
No I don't want to wait forever
No I don't want to wait forever
In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes,
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,
No I don't want to wait forever
No I don't want to wait forever
No I don't want to wait forever
♥ Love, ME
Wednesday, May 02, 2007 ♥
ranted@4:04 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
"That's My King"The late Dr. S. M. Lockeridge, a pastor from San Diego, California said these words in a sermon in Detroit in 1976:My King was born King. The Bible says He's a Seven Way King. He's the King of the Jews - that's an Racial King. He's the King of Israel - that's a National King. He's the King of righteousness. He's the King of the ages. He's the King of Heaven. He's the King of glory. He's the King of kings and He is the Lord of lords. Now that's my King. Well, I wonder if you know Him. Do you know Him? Don't try to mislead me. Do you know my King? David said the Heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament shows His handiwork. My King is the only one of whom there are no means of measure that can define His limitless love. No far seeing telescope can bring into visibility the coastline of the shore of His supplies. No barriers can hinder Him from pouring out His blessing. He's enduringly strong. He's entirely sincere. He's eternally steadfast. He's immortally graceful. He's imperially powerful. He's impartially merciful. That's my King. He's God's Son. He's the sinner's Saviour. He's the centerpiece of civilization. He stands alone in Himself. He's honest. He's unique. He's unparalleled. He's unprecedented. He's supreme. He's pre-eminent. He's the loftiest idea in literature. He's the highest personality in philosophy. He's the supreme problem in higher criticism. He's the fundamental doctrine of historic theology. He's the carnal necessity of spiritual religion. That's my King. He's the miracle of the age. He's the superlative of everything good that you choose to call Him. He's the only one able to supply all our needs simultaneously. He supplies strength for the weak. He's available for the tempted and the tried. He sympathizes and He saves. He's the Almighty God who guides and keeps all his people. He heals the sick. He cleanses the lepers. He forgives sinners. He discharged debtors. He delivers the captives. He defends the feeble. He blesses the young. He serves the unfortunate. He regards the aged. He rewards the diligent and He beautifies the meek. That's my King. Do you know Him? Well, my King is a King of knowledge. He's the wellspring of wisdom. He's the doorway of deliverance. He's the pathway of peace. He's the roadway of righteousness. He's the highway of holiness. He's the gateway of glory. He's the master of the mighty. He's the captain of the conquerors. He's the head of the heroes. He's the leader of the legislatures. He's the overseer of the overcomers. He's the governor of governors. He's the prince of princes. He's the King of kings and He's the Lord of lords. That's my King. His office is manifold. His promise is sure. His light is matchless. His goodness is limitless. His mercy is everlasting. His love never changes. His Word is enough. His grace is sufficient. His reign is righteous. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. I wish I could describe Him to you . . . but He's indescribable. That's my King. He's incomprehensible, He's invincible, and He is irresistible. I'm coming to tell you this, that the heavens of heavens can't contain Him, let alone some man explain Him. You can't get Him out of your mind. You can't get Him off of your hands. You can't outlive Him and you can't live without Him. The Pharisees couldn't stand Him, but they found out they couldn't stop Him. Pilate couldn't find any fault in Him. The witnesses couldn't get their testimonies to agree about Him. Herod couldn't kill Him. Death couldn't handle Him and the grave couldn't hold Him. That's my King. He always has been and He always will be. I'm talking about the fact that He had no predecessor and He'll have no successor. There's nobody before Him and there'll be nobody after Him. You can't impeach Him and He's not going to resign. That's my King! That's my King! Thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory. Well, all the power belongs to my King. We're around here talking about black power and white power and green power, but in the end all that matters is God's power. Thine is the power. Yeah. And the glory. We try to get prestige and honor and glory for ourselves, but the glory is all His. Yes. Thine is the Kingdom and the power and glory, forever and ever and ever and ever. How long is that? Forever and ever and ever and ever. . . And when you get through with all of the ever's, then . . .Amen!
♥ Love, ME
