Thursday, April 26, 2007 ♥
ranted@12:16 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
i never cease to be amaze how sometimes memories can bring you into a nostalgic mood.
this is a wonder, i guess of the brain.
that jolts you into a time where you missed, loved or despise.
sometimes... i jus wish that memories wouldnt seem so real.
perhaps then the cut wouldnt deepen.
but i guess this is something that mus be dealt with.
to familarise yourself with that emotion then...
you'll no longer fear to feel it. to experience it once again.
okay.
poly life isnt that slack as i expected.
i have like tons of tutorials and reading up to do.
and projects to submit.
but i'm enjoyin the life i have.
haha.
i still find it kinda amusing that i was so determined to go to jc.
in the end, right at the last minute.
i reconsidered and chose the poly route instead of jc.
banking and finance is fun.
the subjects are all kinda to my liking.
yup.
the only disadvantage is that np is so far away from home.
and waking up 3hours earlier to get on time is a real drag.
LOL.
had IS classes.
watched catch me if you can with beeling (BHB)at the np library.
yeah.
oh wells. today IS class was on self-awareness.
honestly, its a topic that really is kinda personal.
but nonetheless, it gets your head cracking and your mind working.
i cant wait till friday! shopping with beeling! whee. haha.
beeling! rmb to bring camera.
let's be camera whores for a day!
-grins.
my class is finally uniting.
-grins!
lunch was a great idea.
we seriously got to do it more often(:
this feeling i'm feeling.
is a curse or blessing.
oh wells.
go figure jean
hope you're doing well.
time flies.
i was dumb.
silly.
the stupid things we did.
the things we dreamt of.
one day?
will it come to pass?
i miss you.
and your friendship.
i wish, i wish all these things ppl tell me arent true.
but i'm being naive and plain dumb.
i can only hope.
but i know that it wont come true.
i just have to move on.
♥ Love, ME
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 ♥
ranted@12:32 AM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
20april 2007i wanna thank the Starhub guy and Linksys Lady for helping me with my com.
haha.
stupid NP helpdesk.
only screw my internet connection.
LOL.
it was great service!
thumbs up for them.
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its my actual first day of school.
sadly i travelled all the way just for a lecture of only 2 friggin hours.
LOL.
My sweet grandma is recovering spedily.
Thank God for that.
Its a morning i never want to relive.
even now. i fear, i fear for her.
but i trust in the Lord.
Its time to Look towards the future.
To Live the present.
To Love the past with its hurts and lessons.
Life, though seeming lengthy and extremely abundant, is jus a passing second compared to eternity.
And yet, it
is the span in which you determine your endless years.
You can choose to either Love it, Live it or perhaps Angst in it.
Unexplainable things happen at a flick of a hand.
While Others question, Others blame, Others curse
i will praise the Maker for giving me a Life.
Though the pains engraved in my mind and heart may not disappear or even fade as time passes.
i will learn to rejoice in it.
to cherish it.
and to face it.
perhaps, someday when i'll ready, Life itself will be more fufilling and the hopes and dreams that i place in His hands will be my history.
On certain days i will climb the harsh obstacle ahead of me-which i will conquer
On other days i will stand at the peak and be in awe of the glory
Yet on others i will stand at the valleys and tear at the bloodshed on its grounds, shedding tears and drops of blood of my own.
Unexplainable.
Undescribable.
Unpredictable.
That, my dear friend, is Life in its fullest form.
♥ Love, ME
