Friday, October 05, 2007 ♥
ranted@4:06 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
'The Shadow of the Wind' is a definitely, must read. i give it 5million stars out of 5. haha. Its awesome and it kept me up, reading past daybreak.
you know, as i was sitting in my mom's car and passing by some streets, i suddenly, thought.
it would be great if i could move out of here and live at some foreign country.
And considered the possibility of it.
But then i realised i was like somewhat a caged bird, or a trapped animal.
I'm stuck here with shackles, chaining me down to Singapore.
like a puppet, controlled by strings.
and if i were to break them, it seemed like i would become a roaming stranger-knowing the amount of pain that I would inflict upon myself and my loved ones.
No, its nothing to do with my family and friends.
I'm very very contented with them and i would never trade them for a million, billion, zillion sushi and chocolate treats.
Its just that, I want to be free, away from the woes and burdens that a society throws at you.
I want to climb the mountains, explore the unlimited oceans, dive through the wonderous skies.
And simply, enjoy running through the plains and twirling with the trees and flowers as my companions.
I want to run barefoot at sandy beaches and scream my lungs out.
I want to smile like an idiot, laugh like a fool and run like there's no tommorrow.
Maybe one day... when i'm old enough and self-sufficient i will fulfil them.
But till now, my dreams just have to wait.
no this is not a random emo moment. haha. so please dont get work up thinking i need some counselling.
and guess what? i can officially say that its over! reality dawn on me as i lay on my bed writing to my diary and letter to God. i realise, i'm not ready to settle down for anything serious and sadly, i too have seemed to lost the thought of enjoying my singlehood. And the biggest realisation, he is so not the prince charming i want to sweep me off my feet. hahaha. so 3 cheers. (: shaan would be so proud of me. haha. eh shaan right?
note to self: stay away from irritating guys that cant speak or write proper english and who seem rather too enthuastic in striking a conversation with you. oh God, teach me to love them as myself. I seriously, need counselling and conviction in that.
♥ Love, ME
