Wednesday, May 24, 2006 ♥
ranted@8:41 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
he moves on too fast.
everyone does.
but she stands there.
blurred.
depressed.
paralysed.
wad can she do?
a million thoughts crash into her soundless mind.
and turns it topsy turvy.
forgiveness?
trust?
no longer in her vocabulary of Life.
in fact,
wad is Life?
wad is Friends?
wad is this mystical thing that's grabbing onto her..
not letting her go?
she screams..
she gropes in the darkness.
the distance of God seems so far.
she's moved.
there's a barrier between God and her.
she CRIES out..
to her one and only Saviour.
she needs Him so much now.
she needs to get over all that happen.
let it be a blank page.
a thing stored in her mind.
sealed forever.
never to b opened.
a pandora box.
this section of her mind.
this section of her heart.
this section of her life.
forgotten.
lost.
amongst the empty space.
she hardens her heart.
this ice.
this barrier.
when can she ever trust again?
when can she forgive?
when can she learnt to love everyone again?
only time will tell.
and
only GOD can make it happen.
an impossible task to human
but a possible task to GOD.
i love Jesus.
take me back to ur loving arms once again.
away from everything.
i running back.
ps.
YUANTING. I LOVE CARPARKS? LOL.
♥ Love, ME
