Sunday, April 30, 2006 ♥
ranted@5:50 PM
Dear diary,
JEAN says
Life is a myth to me.
so many things can happen in jus a matter of minutes.
hours.
days.
weeks.
months.
years.
haha. sometimes. i laugh at the irony of things.
and yet.. sometimes i cry at how things can turn out to be.
nonetheless.
life goes on.
i wonder why on earth am i here?
why cant i go back home.
back home to heaven.
where joy peace love and happiness truly exist.
why live on this earth
where only hatred. pain. anger. heartaches. tears. sadness exist.
i look around me.
so many ppl are hurting.
so many ppl are crying.
so many ppl are acting.
silently..
they cry out.
cry out to an invisible person to rescue them
and...
no one turns up.
no one stretches out a hand.
no one is there to lend a shoulder.
perhaps..
that's why i'm going thru so much roller coaster rides.
i asked God in the AOG conference- synerg!z to give me. show me. let me experience the pain my youths. my friends. my loved ones are going thru.
and boy is he answering that major prayer.
thank you..
it hurts bad.
but at least i know.
that there's always someone out there.
my hero.
my fren.
my rescuer.
my father.
my love.
my GOD.
carrying me.
reaching out to HOLD my hand.
and.. i'm clinging.
clinging so badly.
my mission on Earth is not completed.
till then i will not die.
till then i will not be able to go to heaven.
i thank God for giving me such an honour.
i'm sorry..
i will not be the perfect example of a christian.
i wont be able to promise that i will not sin.
i'm a rotten piece of junk.
but.. God..
to give me such an honour.
i want to thank you so much.
even if i have to die and suffer for UR name.
i will.
you took up the burdens of the world.
the sins of the world.
and died on the cross.
please.. give me the strength to carry on too.
thank you..
i need you Jesus
to come to my rescue.
whereelse can i go.
there's no other name by which i am saved.
capture me with grace
i will follow you..
i will follow you..
i will follow you..
♥ Love, ME
